He texted me Monday night out of the blue. I told him Merry Christmas on the day and he didn’t respond. Now I heard from him again. All I could think was, this could be bad news. Don’t do it.
I was with iMusician on Monday so of course I just told MarineGator I didn’t want to hang out. I thought that would be it, but then I got a text yesterday asking what I was doing in the evening. We ended up deciding to watch a movie and ‘snuggle’ that night. I couldn’t stop thinking about what this would do to iMusician if he found out. But I thought to myself…
I think I need this. It will let me know if I really do have stronger feelings for iMusician if for some reason I feel guilty or know that I want to leave or not see MarineGator anymore.
So I went to his place. We watched the movie and to be incredibly blunt… we hooked up. The thing I remember most was his comment on how I was more into it this time since last time I was hesitant and kind of just gave in. Yes I was more into it this time but only on a physical level. I realized that is all it was for him too.
How did I become someone’s booty call? The one to satisfy an animal need? I don’t even think he wanted me to stay the night. I did, but we didn’t even touch each other the entire night. I think he’s an ass. He could say the same for me I guess since I’m not exactly the warmest person to him. We don’t have much conversation. I don’t know if that is because he doesn’t have much of a personality or if it’s just because we are both infatuated with each other. I mean he does look exactly Bradley Cooper. And he’s strong. And knows how to please a woman.
This morning I told iMusician that I fell asleep after the gym last night. I feel terrible. What’s happening?